"So , when I am calling you up?", angi said it with same determination as before .
The question was all of a sudden as always before.
Still , the same tone of excite-ment was there in his words.
Angi always got the same answer , but still he had his own rules .
He never believed that something can never be acheived .
Angi was as appelant in his appeal as before.
..."What keeps his enthusiasm goin on?"...she thought.
"can't he never come to terms . Atleast now ! What keeps his thoughts ratiefied?", she wondered.
..."You!You and only you! ", said a rather rational angi .
She was stunned , a wave of amazement gripped her strong.
"Still ,still ! How always he could read her thoughts ! And how justified was he in his answers . Was she wrong before ? She always wanted others to trust her , but did she ever trust him before.",she was rustled ."Whatever!", the old keel of her, supported her earlier decisions.
..."Did I anytime trust him", she indulged herself in her thoughts .
"Did I",she still confused .
She knew the answer but was feared to accept it.
She still wanted to keep juggling thoughts, and always juggle it out of her hands .
"Did I heard something!"..she asked herself.
"Had angi read her thoughts again"
"He must have !" His face told her that he knew the answer , but he was never going to give it up.
..."Trust , Rust , Oust ",words aroused in her minds , words which she always used and knew , but today they gave a whole new meaning"
..."Has he finally succeded in winning my soul"...her thoughts were like an isthmus connecting two souls ANGI and her-self.
..."How many times did he ever think of me ! When I was away or when he was away !"
She drowned her-self in the memories , the dilemmas of past .
The times when his love for her was the strongest .
"It was his fault , only ! He never said anything clearly . What's my doing with this ?"..she continued "But he always meant it ? Didnt he?"
She never thought like this before or did she .
She was figthing a war of words within.
The memories of the long gone by past , stood right in front of her, it was so clear . It was happening in front of her.
Angi had to leave for a trip , which was so very important for his life.
Angi mentioned it to her , that he was leaving and before leaving he wanted her contact number.
"How fantastic and absurd was he in his demand , his words were straight and simple ",she hummed "For the first time",she was attacked by a string of emotions"Yeah!",she smiled.
When he was away , how many times she wished for his success , how many times missed him , how many galas she missed , she only knew for her-self.
"Aniways , let it be!", she reminded her-self its already to far of now.
She continued "Now I have many people to care of."
She still went on into the times when Angi changed him-self for her.
"But ....", she paused.
"Whatever...",she replied her-self.The word had stuck with her,as Angi him-self.
She decided to put an end to the conversation.She always believed that when you cannot answer the emotions , its better to leave , she never imagined the jolt what others got due to this.
Angi had learnt patience by now.
"Bye , take care , and good night", was what she wrote him back before going off."They are crying and they need my care".
Angi hadnt come to terms with 'BYE' as yet.
He had never mentioned it,and never wanted to mention it.
But now Life was telling a bye to him.
His life had now served him for a long time. "Longer than her",he thought.He always wanted to cut it short , so that the wait for her could be finally over, but who in the universe could do anything against the will of the Live-giver.He was never brave ever to go against HIM.
As Angi stared at the screen of his screen , the memories of the long-gone past stared back at him, as usual.
But what was this , why where his eyes dampening for the first time, did some dust-particle made a way to his eyes.
He always had a strong bind with enigma , with emotions , with her, but he never said or let it be seen . He was strong enough to carry it with him for 80 years .
"Yeah!","Eighty years ......",he dozed"Ya",..coming back to reality"Preety long time",eighty years had passed when he first met her on a popular site then .
But somethings dont change.
He was still there wating for her.
He had been popular all these years, among friends , among colleagues and among his loved ones.
Life had changed after his matriculation and took a steep perpendilar turn , after meeting her.
He was quickly surfaced by his mistakes.
His under-doings.Should he had put in more hard work ?
In his studies.
"HAHAHA"
A glim of smile was in his face when he thought of times , when he was young and had entered the world of profession and was advancing with leaps and bounds.
At times of youth , he had thoughts of approaching her at her house and galloping away with her.Of-course his thoughts were driven by the cult of cinema,then.
He was startled.
"If I had done that, I would also acheived something more?",he smiled precariously.
"The thing could either have landed him in jail or in heaven","Isnt it ",he said as if questioning the onlookers.
In his dreams he could'nt think of a day , which were devoid of her face , her words.
"One second!",his brain opposed him, although most of his body were now not so loyal to him, yet his heart beat to strong and his brain questioned still hard.
"How can you ever see anyone in your wildest dreams , if you haven't seen the person in-self",his queries wanted to make his thoughts rathher ratified.
"Her face?", "Come to terms".
Yes he had neither seen her.
But the mind always tries to sketch the figures of persons whom the eyes have never seen.
Yes, it was right , eighty years and he had never seen him , or rather she never wanted him to see her. This is what always led ANGI jump to the conclusion that what was wrong with her.
In his large lived life , when he was on trips across the distance ,he could think of times when girls were ready to show their- selves entirely , on the basis of a few days of friendship.
"And ", he was rather angry now "It was the matter of 80 years now ".
But the words of a great thinker made him happy for his decisions,"Real love doesn't demand the other person ."
Some-one had said to him,"If u Love someone then add some wings to ur Love. After having wings if it still decide to stay with u, then it's a True Love".
But she never stayed with him.
Angi still quite clearly rememberes , if not vividly , that she had commited her-self to someone , during their spell of talks.
Angi never dared to ask who was it , "neither would she had answered ", he recalled.
She to had a great career ,very succesful , a career with the same rote.The profession which employed a trilion of people.
Angi in his teens wanted to do a lot of things, but he could never acheive what he wanted.
He had done his bachelor's of technology from a reputed collage , then.
But he always wanted to do something different .
He did all kinds of weird jobs , as his parents said.
Although he had studied computers , in his bachelors , he never knew of times when he worked with them."He HE",he reminded himself that he always used it for communicating with her . "yeah! but that I could have done without studying it to".
Yes it was true , but he had never learnt to say a "NO",to what others demanded of him.
He had commited him-self to all sorts of jobs,whether it was working in a shipping firm to being a wild-life forest officer and all those sorts.
But the greatest heroes to fall ill, and angi was no hero ever , and he fell ill seriously , which made his doctors advise him a complete month rest.
Means he was back at home after ages.
And while he was getting a oppurtunity to sleep in his home ,to get in cozy with it since he had left it , his parents were busy finding a match for him , so that he could become responsible and start leading a normal life.
He never knew it.
But he had never learnt to say it a no.
He cleched his fists , and after so many years threw the glass jug out in the doorway.It shattered . Though not as hard his heart on the day he got the news .[ angi was known to do this when he was a teenager to show his anger ]
Which news ?
The whole thing looked into his eyes , and one could see the pain in those old eyes.
Pain? for a thing which he never had .
Only true lovers knew of it .
Did he mention lover.
Did he love her?
................
who ever knew that most of his words , those words which made so many readers cry , due to the enigma it contained , were true . All came to him , because he wrote it keeping her in mind. Everthing .
Angi calmed down .
Maybe I was not for her , marriages are made in heaven.
The news what was it?
He was 93 now .
Yet he remembered .
What happened exactly some 65 years , back.
He was so young then.
But not a bachelor , he was always devoted to her.
After a so enjoyable day at work , he was as usual talking to her .
He was as always irritating her with his , questions .
He always behaved like a CHILD WHICH HE RESEMBLED everytime he talked to her
NOw also. "Ya",
"Who wants to grow up",angi smiled.
She was as always before slow in her replies .
Then as it was time for her to leave , angi remembers "why always she left first" was I a "tp".
[ tp ...haha a word he learned from one of his best e-friends]
But at that time he believed in her more then him-self.
which some say was his greatest fault.
.....so she continued before leaving ,
"actually I was late in replying you",she told to him"I was browsing a site which tells you a 100 things which you should take care of during marriage ceremonies."
Angi was as usual pacified , diligent in his reply"ok great , so you are reading this for whom , any of your close ones getting married , who is going to whirlpool of the marriage, heh"
"Oh! so sorry did I forget to tell you I am getting married on the 16th of next month", she was so relaxed in her call.
"What"no words to describe angi's mood.
"Didnt it mattered for you to tell me this before", he was trying to hide his cries in the wraps of false wrath. He could never be angry , he was broken .
"Oh! sorry , soory , soory , :(" , were her replies.
Angi was not watching at her replies no-more.
He was watching of the dreams , he had for her .
He always thought she loved him
"nO more", he did knew it know.
It was the first time angi left first.
Drops of tears flowed in his eyes.
He was crying for someone , his friends thought he never had.
He had plans of standing by her forever.
He thought he would swear her to always his.
Maybe , he was a little deep.
He was always so sure that she would say a Yes when he asked him.
But it seemes angi had closed his eyes before , he had shut his eyes and imagining his own ideas.
He was a fool , he reminded him-self.
He was right , his friends were justified . He was fooled .
He behaved as a casino player , who was winning all these years , but lost all oh his precious love , his greatest treasure in a single night.
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He came to reality .
He had fallen asleep , oh !
"Time passes so quickly when you are with your loved ones , although it was dream , such dreams made him always attached to her .", he smiled
Angi started to sing one of his favourite classics, which he loved to sing for her , ages ago , but the love still existed in his words , love for some one whom he never had.
And what happened to her.
Well she got married , had some children , and now was taking care of the children of her children.
And angi , well he had a great marriage life to.
His parents had found him a great pair.
If angi was north , his wife was south .
Opposites always atayed together .
Angi always loved her , and to his wife he was always loyal.
She to was very caring . There hardly any friction between them.
At times angi thought , was he betraying his wife , not telling her that she was not his love never .
"No,", his soul reminded him" Its not necessary our love is our wife ".
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